03 November 2021

hey guys

 A few things.

1. Armpits. The Native deodorant is a champ. I sweat a little, but there is rarely an odor, and I don't have to scrub my pits raw every night trying to get the antiperspirant off. I'm a fan. I'll follow up again in July when it really matters, but for now I'm sold.

2. We have been keeping our eyes on lake houses for over a year now, and have been actively looking since August (pre-approved and ready to pounce), with not much luck. The market is slowing down, but we haven't seen anything we really like. I was really hoping to have a lake house by the end of the year, so here we go: manifesting some badass properties within our budget that will come on the market.

3. My belly continues to mostly behave. I'm so grateful for the calm. I might have found a good combination of diet and supplements. I might even gain some weight! When I feel better and put on a little weight, I feel feminine and soft and sexy. I haven't had curves in a while and I miss them.
It's funny how everyone has different opinions about body image. I hate it when people comment on my body positively when I'm sick and lose weight because I FEEL sickly and bony and gross. It's so weird how people do that anyway.
Starting a new movement: Quit scrutinizing peoples' bodies.
And I swear, if I hear one more person tell me that I'm skinny because I can't eat gluten... Ugh. People are the worst sometimes.
In the meantime, I'm learning to appreciate my body no matter what size I am, no matter if I'm sick or feeling good. I am grateful for a body that wakes up every morning and carries me through life and every glorious experience, no matter what it looks or feels like. That is a big humongous step for me and I'm proud of myself.

4. We were exercising twice a week for a few weeks... and then we took vacations and I traveled for work during weird hours and our schedule went to shit. Trying to get back on track but it's difficult when your schedule keeps changing. At the very least, we do pushups every day and go for nice long evening walks when the weather is nice.

Life has actually been pretty blissful lately. Work is a nice cycle between being busy and then I get a break, we've been traveling to some fun places, our families are happy and healthy, and we are feeling very content and blessed. Taking the opportunity to breathe in and out easily... if you don't count the allergies.