28 September 2020

doctor crap

I went to the doctor today.

I was going to find a new PCP closer to where I live, but they called me and it's covered 100% by insurance. I made the appointment because I've been wanting bloodwork done.

The doctor spent a grand total of 3 minutes with me, talking nonstop, chattering/ scolding me about my weight loss since my last visit, which completely surprised me. I managed to get a word in and tell her that I had some digestive issues that have gotten better, but I did mention that I have been feeling more fatigued than normal lately.
She dismissed my comment, saying that the fatigue was related to the weight loss, then she spent the rest of the visit going on about how weight loss affects the menstrual cycle, even though I told her that my periods were fine.
I sat there listening to her, thinking, wtf?

It was honestly a little weird. I have a feeling that no matter what concerns I would have mentioned, she would have attributed them to the weight loss. Aliens fly out of my ass at night? Oh, it's because of the weight loss. She was super focused on it. 

It's not like I'm skeletal or malnourished, and as a doctor shouldn't she be more concerned about the digestive issues, or even suspect a thyroid problem, or if she was that concerned about my weight, perhaps she could have asked questions to screen for an eating disorder/ mental health issue? Nope. None of that. 

I'm so disgusted by our healthcare system, because this is the normal standard of care.

Good thing I don't have any serious issues at the moment; I just wanted bloodwork done and if there's anything actually wrong it will show up there. But what a shitty doctor's visit. 

19 September 2020

home, work, stuff

My day consisted of mostly this:


I like home depot as much as the next homeowner, but FG takes his time in home depot. We spent 2 hours there today. He picked out a pile of small things, then since we didn't have a cart he just LEFT IT THERE to go find a cart. 30 minutes later after a couple of detours we went back and it was still there, but it was in the back of my mind the whole time. 
Would that drive you nuts? I'm getting used to it, because he routinely abandons his cart in the grocery store to go get things, but it's still ramps my anxiety up a bit.

Every day has been full of unpacking, organizing, and fixing things, punctuated by work trips or a vacation. I am happy to announce that ALL of my everyday boxes have been unpacked and mostly incorporated into the house, including kitchen stuff. Some seasonal stuff is still in the storage unit, but daily life might just get a little easier now.

I volunteered to work in New Jersey in a couple of weeks. It's an active construction site so I had to buy a hard hat and a vest and steel toed boots. I've never been to New Jersey. I hope it's still pretty and fall-like up there when I go.

I signed up for the BoxyCharm beauty box and so far I'm on the fence. I asked for mostly skincare items and they have sent me mostly makeup items. I gave most of the first box away, and I like most of the second box, so I'm giving it one more shot before I cancel it. At some point with these boxes you become overrun with things you don't want. I would love 5 night creams but I don't need 10 mascaras or eyeshadow pallets, you know?

13 September 2020

sweet gestures and such

Today I got a text message from FG's daughter. You may or may not know, but it's Grandparent's day. Well, she texted me a sweet video featuring FG's grandson, with the subject, "Happy Nen Day!" I'm not exactly the grandma or step-grandma officially, but it was an incredibly nice thing to do. He raised good kids.
His family always makes me feel so included and loved. Speaking of, his youngest just found out she's pregnant (with a girl), and I'm so damn excited. More ruffles and bows and glitter!

I just got back from a work trip to Tampa. I volunteered (sorta) to pick up a night shift at Big Reference Lab. Our Houston facility doesn't need 24/7 support any more, but various sites around the country are in different phases and still need help. One of their guys came to help us when we were burnt out, so it was nice to return the favor. Plus Tampa is not the worst place to be working. Beaches and hotel points are okay with me. I was able to adjust to the schedule better than I expected, but it was still rough. At the end of the week, I was glad to get home.

I have more to discuss, but I'm just so tired. Spent the day adjusting back to a normal sleep schedule and completing approximately 20 projects around the house. It's done being painted, so phase 2 of organizing/ merging/ purging/ designating items for the lake house is in full effect. Plus we had to replace a leaky faucet and various other maintenance items and I've had half a bottle of wine so I'm tired.

Nite.