Is this something blown way out of proportion as a political move? Another sensationalized news story to distract from another issue? The conspiracy theories are sounding more plausible than what we're fed by the media and (ugh) social media.
Also, this is 2020. Wash your hands, cover your cough, and no one should be fighting for equal rights regarding race, gender, sexuality, etc. Enough already! I'm sick of the circus. I'm becoming increasingly disgusted by humanity and the corrupt societies that we build... and support.
In other news...
House- The buyer and I came to an agreement which involves more money out of my pocket, and some slightly shady under-the-table stuff, but when it's over I'll still be pretty happy to get this house off my shoulders. Today we went and looked at a really, really cute house but it smelled like cigarette smoke, like they smoked inside. You can never get that smell out of a house. Uck. Not meant to be.
Relationship- There has been constant thought and discussion regarding the living situation, mostly on my part because FG knows what he wants and is waiting patiently for my brain to calm down. Here's the most recent update:
We have had many discussions about the logistics of living together and it evolved to the point where it seemed like I would move into FG's house, because it works. To the point where I know which room will be my office and we are choosing paint colors to repaint the whole house. It's actually been a lot of fun.
But. In our most recent conversation, I told him that I didn't feel like I was 100% there yet. I felt rushed. I didn't want to risk ruining our relationship because we moved too fast for me. I needed to make sure it felt right before I made this big huge life change and commitment. At the end of our conversation we agreed that I should still buy a house near him and live in it until we're ready to merge lives for good. Which we are both confident will happen, I just need a little bit more time.
It's funny though, because once we had that talk, most of my hesitations went away and living with him didn't seem so scary. Once I actually got the extra time, I didn't feel like I needed it.
WTF, brain.
I hesitate to tell him all of this because I've been so back and forth he might just think I'm nuts... which I might be. I might sit quietly on these thoughts for a while and see how they evolve.
I figure what will happen is I will find a great house and if I want to move into it, then my gut is saying take more time. If I don't want to move into it, then my gut is saying it's time to start building a life with FG.
There ya go. Moving on.
Travel- We're going to take that long weekend vacation in Key West and we've booked a bunch more trips. Making up for lost travel time!
Work- I get a week of PTO on the horizon so I'm going to enjoy our trip, then get ready to sell most of my crap in the garage sale and spend as much time with Pumpkin as I can.
Punk- She's had a rough few days. Hasn't been eating much and mostly takes naps in the heated cat bed. She's done this before and bounced back, but she's so much skinnier now and I feel guilty leaving her alone for a few days. I don't want her dying alone but I hear animals do that, so it is what it is.
Right now she's curled up in the sunbeam covering her eyes, looking happy.
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